Im not a perfect girl and Im not trying to be... There are so many things I want to share with everyone, almost all the thorns hurt. Ok fine, I felt so stupid. Im in a Fashio-N Sho-W. Sometimes I feel bad, sometimes I feel good. And dont we all think we are the most georgeous people ever? Well actually, that's nonsense. So just drop it. So this is a breaking point. Im rambling now and will you please shut up your mouth about this little oh for me big thinggos. WTF? Im gonna get some random disease..yuckyuckyuck..

Let's Start...
 You are so random :|, I cant feel the gravity ||*stomp*stomp*|| I always feel that the right scene is unexpected. I mean what are you supposed to do with complements like that? Then I suddenly feel so crappy. This feeling really hurts. I have a feeling that my head will suddenly spin if this thing is just a piece of a crap. Damn! Random Crap.. I think up.

 

           Hiyah! Welcome to my very first post this month of June. HAHA! Its been a while since my last post was posted. Well, I actually had my vacation for three days in Pangasinan. Im so excited to have my vacation atlast because I've been so tired spending my summer break into a worth it cause. My mom told me that we will have it (our vacation) for 3 days but for me we only stayed there for 2 days or less. THAT IS SOOO UNFAIR!!! Well, I cant do something about it now cause Im in Manila now. 

           We went to the bus station at exactly 5:30 in the morning and I feel dizzy because I hate the scent of an aircon bus that passed our way. Yay! So we had the trip for almost 5 hours and I felt a backpain. We had the stop over in  Tarlac and then we took few pics :)). Idk what's happening and I felt so random so we ate na lng. We arrived in our destination in mid 10 or 11. But we waited for my Tita so I think its been around 12. HAHA! I really had fun when we took a tric from the town proper to the barrio. HAHA! So many big rocks and the running water, yay! fun..fun..fun. When we arrived to my grandma's house it seems like that their place undergone a great calamity. All the mango trees had fallen and the scene is sooo gawd! But well we still enjoyed everything.

          My cousins and I had so much kwentos then we decided to go to he river.We swam although I had a female issue. HAHA! Then we took pics but only a few pics cause we are afraid that we got low batt since there is no electricity there because of the typhoon. Then we always have a bonfire every night.

          One thing really pissed me off is my mom. Yay! She always put me in shame. What would you do if you cant hear what she's saying? My gawd! Im effin kainis so I just went upstairs and I started to cry. One of my cousin saw me crying, aww.. love you Lyn! HAHA! Well, erased. Me and Lyn are so close these days cause we really talk about random things. I really had fun sharing stories with her and I really laugh till death when I heard the story of crazy beings she did talk about. When we went home yesterday i felt so sad because I will see them again soon. And my vacation didnt satisfy my cravings so much. But its okay na rin. :)

*More of other pics soon. Idk now how would I upload those pics. I dont have an idea now :))

          I finished what I need to finish this summer. A big hooray for me. HAHA! But then I realized that time for learning, fun and bonding with my other friends is now over. No more super funny ideas, lazy sessions and laughing out loud moments. I'll surely miss everything. We really enjoy each others company although we came from different places and we dont know each other at all. So let me share a little part of me by sharing my own story as a new found friend and a summer class student.

         
           I cant remember the day, the month and the date, all I know is that I need to have an effin summer which I really dont like at all. For me, summer is time for vacation after a long time of pressure and high school drama. My heart and mind is craving for the word - VACATION! Please give me a summer to remember. So I keep on my mind that in mid March ,I'll be having what I really want and I will surely enjoy the sun. But after a short period of time this excitement turns into a curse. Im so happy mentioning about vacation and then my mom suddenly freak out the word "SUMMER CLASS!". I was like blank. WTF? Its summer time mom, why dont you give us a break. I do not even know, but the word really scares me a lot. I still wait and wait and im still hoping that my mom would change her mind to help me escape this mid life crisis of mine. But I was wrong. I feel so empty, so lost and Im really really blank :|. And the story will start in this one. DAMN!

         First day of summer class is here with me, we need to have a diagnostic test- a very weird diagnostic test because its effin hard. Gawd! At first Im okay cause my mom accompanied us and my sister is with me. But I feel very out of place because Mascians filled the whole room and I dont know anyone there. I did storytell my mom my experiences hoping that she would change her mind and she would let me enjoy my summer vacation and she would let me quit the summer class. But what she said is that, "Okay lang yan.". What?! What do you mean okay? Reality check mom, Im not okay, Im really not okay. I just continued everything. The next day we are given our own room assignments. Im in the room of Faraday and my sister's section is Galileo. DAMN! Please let me stay with her. I cant go on a summer class with people I dont know personally and Im not really good in open ups. I was kinda like commiting suicide at that moment and I really want to jump in the building just to escape that bitter reality. Okay, I need to face it eventhough I dont like it. I sat on the third row in the middle without any seatmate. And as expected, our class is very quiet because we dont know each other though. I noticed the first two girls in my left side. they are really enjoying each others company and they really laughing so hard. I got senti again cause I remembered my friends when we used to laugh so hard. But look at me now Im all alone. After a while, my heart became happy cause someone sat on my side eventhough she didnt talk to me a lot, i feel so secure and whatsoever. Everyone had their own groups but Im not afraid to anyone of them. Then we took the test in Language Proficiency about verbs, words, sentences, blahblah :)). But I got butterfly in my urinary system and I really need to go to the comfort room. But I cant cause Im so afraid of everything like maybe the teacher will scold me in front of the class, she will tear my test paper, let me stand outside the classroom and other horrible things in my mind. But I stood up and I asked one girl in front if she could accompany me in the comfort room. She agree.

ME: May kasama po ba kayo?
HER: Wala.
ME: Pwede po magpasama sa cr?
HER: Huh?
ME: Pwede mo ba akong magpsama sa cr? ksi natatakot po ako eh
HER: okay.

        I was like hey! you have a new found friend. Yipee! you made it. The we walked on the stairs. And we shared personal stories like name, school blahblah :)). She was my first friend in summer class. Ehem! Milrose Cruz :)). And then I as with her until the end of our class. I was kinda shy. HAHA! But then I found this girl really really nice. You know what it made me realize that she is a great friend. We both like many things like candy magazine, mathematics and most of all sharing stories about life and love. We also both like internet surfing. She is like my other half. She is like my sister but she is better than my childish sister which I really love.HAHA! This friendship continues until this time and I really enjoy her company. HAHA! We really share about other stories. One thing that really catches us is about boys. HAHA! Its about Ehem and Ehem. Okay I admit, they are hot but not more than that. We also talk about Inday, HAHA!. She is one of my hater and she told me that Im a copycat,cheater and whatsoever. Well, we dont care. As if she can attain what I can. I opened up this thing to Milrose and she made feel good. She said that they are only insecure and "parang ewan pumorma" HAHA! I hate to be rude but she is baduy. HAHA! Milrose and I always went to CR early in the morning or every break time. We also love picture taking, we are like camwhore!. :)). I also made friends with my other classmates which i truly love most like Alex,Alandia,Jaimie,Shannen, Alpha, and many more. Actually I really dont know all your names. HAHA! Btw, I forgot, Eula and Pauline pa pla and Ate Angelyn too :). Others are not mentioned but no hard feelings guys, i still love you all.Okay? HAHA!.And because there is always a vacant seat in my right side all the students who are going to take up a make up clasess always seat beside me. Some are good but actually some are really really random. :)) And because of that fact my soul sister always tease me about that matter. Especially to Kevin Buenafe. WTF? I dont miss him soul sister. HAHA!

         Time passed so quickly and I really had so much fun with my new friends. I was like oh! its been a month already. And a while ago we had our closing ceremony na. Bye bye friends. I'll miss you...I do have regrets for being so shy that I couldnt open up myself to others. Dont worry I have all your numbers. HAHA! I saw it our batch directory and I will haunt all your fs. HAHA! You really gave me a summer to remember. I know we will see each other again soon. I really had a great time with you guys and may God bless us all. First impression really dont lasts. I love you all, I hope you love me too. HAHA! I will always have all the memories we shared we each toher although we came from different places and we have a different personalities. So again, may God bless us all and let us enjoy the remaining summer vacation we have.

*I'll just post our class pic soon. Maybe on june. HAHA! Okay? :))

***So just check out these pics. These are the things we shared through the whole closing. HAHA! Eto ang mga nakaw na pics. At dahil tinatamad ako mag-upload, salamat sa soul sister ko na npakasipag mag-upload kya panakaw na lng ako mare. :))***

Lovely Memories
Thank you Mare for the pics .HAHA!

             Slap me! Slap me! Is this true? HAHA! I miss school days? Maybe but i think nooo! I had my summer class for this whole summer break so I do think that I only miss my school and my classmates cause its been 2 months. I only have 1 whole year to spend the remaining times with them. And im sure that ups and downs will take all over me. HAHA!Vacation here I come! HAHA! I love summer so much although I didnt enjoy so much the sun but i'll surely enjoy the rain. HAHA!

My School
Stolen from idk. Thanks for the photo :)

vacation 101
need to post this again HAHA! Milrose and I

vacation 102
this is somehow late cause i got this pic last xmas :))

vacation 103
such a wacky pic. look at my grin .HAHA!

vacation 104
Im so shy. HAHA! Im uploading most of my pics here in my blog. I dont wanna upload on fs anymore. So so sure to find it here :))

Summer 2008
May 23, 2008: Friday
Milrose and I on our way home :)

       I will post some stories on Wednesday. The end is near. :(( HAHA! I'll miss all my Faraday classmates eventhough I dont know all your names and some of you really pissed me off. HAHA! Thanks for the memories. My friendster and ym is open for all of you so feel free to add me. HAHA!

Its your turn!
So take your bruised heart
Sit with me and let's see the final score
Pain will make your way to me

Did I Blame?

     I dont wanna be blame! Not anymore! I look pathetic by saying these stupid words. But I cant help it. This is about a girl I met a while ago. I thought I can count her as a new friend but nooo! My gawd! Being shy to everyone is not my excuse to walk away from crowd and not your reason to blew me away from other people. I know its hard but duh! Everything in this world is very hard to attain.Okay, let me get this thing straight. Im not mad at you, its just I got irritated cause your acts are so effin kainis. You also wrote a hard word but I didnt blame you, instead i use my brain and I think so hard just to satisfy the game and then when it is your turn your getting so hysterical and you started to act like a damn retard, oh! its more than retard. I dont wanna talk about this anymore and I dont want other people to think bad about me. So FIN!

I've never been the same

  Last night, me and my soul sister Milrose talk about yooouuu! HAHA! Its you joseph. So if ever you read this one, dont say anything just shut up. Cause Im getting to a point where you can call me mean. Well, I dont care at all. And you know what I am so pissed off of your stupid excuses. If want talk to me then talk to me. Please dont bother other people especially  Milrose.I really hate strangers with undefined motive. Idk but that's what I feel. I'll just post our conversation in ym guys cause Im afraid that this post will be somehow long. HAHA!

You cant escape me

You cant shake me

One Heck of a Roller Coaster Ride!
   The long wait is over for the camwhores! Our class picture which happens to be done last May 19 is moved on this day. So what will I expect? HAHA! Humors filled this one heck of a roller coaster ride. Well, I didnt enjoy it at all. HAHA! It seems like there is a wake and we need to hire a fake dead man so that the setting will be good and classy as ever. HAHA!

Damn Regret!

           HAHA! This one is for the people who always check my blog. Well guys, there are so many typographical errors here so sorry for that. I'll fix it soon. Im so lame to check each one of my post. Soooo! please bear with me.

Read this one guys. I found it on the net. Actually it has a part 2 but Im too lazy to put it here so just read the part 1.

 Dead hearts beat as one
Come break me down, bury me..bury me..
For better or worse
Its real love honey :)
Love cant take this nagging anymore.

       A while ago, I am browsing my comments in fs until I found something familiar. WTF! It is my music X-(. Im totally pissed.  Im willing to help you if you wanna learn. But if you will only peeked to my profile just to see the new updates (music,pictures,contents,etc) and put it on your profile, then your a crap! COPYCAT! My gawd. Im convincing myself that maybe it is a coincidence but duh! After one day only. At first I dont care at all but your effin copycat. And you have the nerves to post other people's profile to promote that they are copycat even you also did that effin crime. For your information dear, YOU PISSED ME OFF! Expect that I will not talk to you anymore but if you say sorry to me, well the crime is cleared.

Real eyes..Real lies..Realize

      Here and now is where I want to be. You'll always be a part of me. Im part of you indefinitely. Time cant erase this feeling so strong. No way you're ever gonna shake me. Believe me its only a matter of time.

      This time is a whacked! That's what you get when you let your heart win. Yay! So as I was saying, there are so many great things that is served to me but I didnt grabbed them all, actually I cant remember most of them. HAHA! I am suffering from my latest addiction again.

1) Chris Brown and Justin Timberlake.

             OMG! They are hot. HAHA! I mean, I really like how they deliver their own music genre. It is not a typical genre as you think. They are both good in dancing. HAHA! I really adore people that is good in things that I sucked in. HAHA! And they are also good in singing. They really make my eyes roll until it pop in its socket. Kaboom!

2) Always be my baby by David Cook

              So have you heard Mariah Carey's version? Well, for me David Cook's version is better than her version. HAHA! American Idol really makes me feel ill. HAHA! On May 22, the season finale will be telecast. i vote for David Cook. Well, I also like David A. but he looks like a kid and I remember what Simon Cowell told him when he sang With You by Chris Brown. HAHA! Its like" you like like a cat singing like a tiger.." Something like that. Wanna hear David Cook's always be my baby? Click me! Click me!

3)Candy Magazine

            Again? HAHA! Well, you cant blame me, it is almost a year. I love the stories others are hilarious. But you know what, the other candy magazines in the year 2005 and 2006 are much better cause there are so many open ups there. HAHA! But I still the love issue now. You can also get something from their site. Click me! Click me!

4)Alyanna :)

             Well, she is not my addiction. Im not lesbi! HAHA! She is a new found friend. She told me that Im so kind. HAHA! Well, she judge me that way cause Im answering all her messages on friendster. I keep on questioning my self if there is someone who is not answering a simple message on friendster. Well, I am not raised to be rude naman, so I always answer everyone's question on me.

        I cant remember most of the things eh. All I know is that they are too many for me to remember.

        I looked up.
I saw a shooting star,
I saw a shooting star in the dark sky.
I made a wish,
I made a wish to be with you.

         Its a living proof how hard to reach your heart. I know you will never understand me, but look in to my eyes, reach to my heart and I will touch your heart with my gentle hands. I find myself shivering, blushing, weak,tormented, sick and going blind. Love does its will no matter what :).

          Is it summer already? I cant believe it. HAHA! Cause I was really soaked a while ago. It rained so hard that you can let your tears fall cause no one will notice it. What a perfect crime. HAHA!

          Summer class will end next week! HAHA! Lucky me nigger. VACATION! VACATION! VACATION! I love it. So what do you want to do now guys? HAHA!:)) Ofcourse..more kwento. Okay.

           So I went to WC again to continue this effin summer class that is full mischievous things.HAHA! I felt so nervous a while ago and I dont know why. Well, jumping to the next topic, my soul sister Milrose is asking me again who is the "missing piece of my heart."  Sis, Im not kidding, he is _ _ _. You already knew it. So what else? Uhmm.. nothing to share. I'll post more thinggos tomorrow when i got sipag na. Im too lazy na eh. HAHA!

        YAY! I felt that Im happy now. Kinda. HAHA! Well, Im still unrecovered for that thing. So, what will I do? Uhmm..nothing. I'll just love every good things and bountiful blessing that God gave me. There's nothing to worry about. I have little in my life that I can complain about and I should be happy about that.  I do think that I have three reasons why I should love my life now.

       This thing is my number one reason. HAHA! I've been longing for another candy mag ever since so I decided to buy something for myself. And now, I have a MAY ish. HAHA! The stories are so fun and very educational for every teens. You will surely enjoy some articles about teenage love and what do boys love about girls and other sure fire things. And there is something more, Guess it! I will not post it here. Cause..cause..cause.. basta! HAHA!  And there are so many hilarious things here. So I think you should go on and buy your own self this good issue.

          After some months or a year, a new phone comes. HAHA! My long wait is over. It july 7, 2007 when my phone got lost or its not lost. Its was taken by somebody in MRT Station. Me and my friends went to Jollibee and we really had a fun time together. When we decided to go home, we passed through the Taft Avenue, one of the MRT Station. When we got down the stairs, I check my bag and I cant find my phone. I really got hysterical and Michael, my gay friend is calming me down. Then we went back again to Jolibee. No trace! HAHA! I dont wanna talk about it anymore. I hope my phone helped that snatcher. May God bless him/her. :)

          The last thing is vacation.HAHA! The picture that you can see is the church of Mangatarem, Pangasinan. I forgot the name :P. HAHA! So this thing only means one thing, VACATION! After a month or two, I will finally use my vacation. May 28 will be the last day of my summer class. Yay! I made it! I have new friends now. I guess :|:)). Sometimes summer class pissed me off but who cares I did enjoy everything now. I have so many regrets this summer. HAHA! I think I should have many more friends if I open up my self more. HAHA! I hope vacation will be whack. I'll have 2 or more weeks to go and senior year will come. Im starting to wave goodbye to my high school life :(.

        So that's it. HAHA! I felt so good na ba tlga? Ugghh, maybe. Life is so random so am I. HAHA! I'll let you go. I want to see you happy with what you have now. If you flies back to me, I will be very very happy. If not, I'll still be happy. I will never forget that for once in my life, I have love a person like you that taught me how to love unconditionally. Maybe one day, we'll see each other again. I have read everything and I will not change just to satisfy you. I want you to love for what I am not for what you want me to be. I'll be stuck forever, forever fixated on your heart. I LESS THAN YOU. :)